Today is the first time since work began that I feel out of it. I don’t know if it’s because my hours are insanely long and I’m starting to realize that I have time for absolutely nothing, or if it’s because I still want to do things I never got to do while on my sabbatical, like learning to surf, take dance classes, and traveling. It’s how it goes, if you have money you don’t have time, and if you have time, you don’t have money, well except for the millionaires out there.
Sure, I’ve missed my career and I enjoy the feeling of accomplishment, but I now miss my free time. Being able to ride my bike and go to the beach whenever I want, and even taking the pup to the park. Truthfully I feel a little guilty I don’t have as much time to spend with doggie. And here is another thing. Not having time also means zero time for a relationship. Sure I just got out of a tricky situation, but it doesn’t mean I’m throwing my hands up in the air in defeat. I still think about him of course, especially when those Latin songs come on the radio on my way to work. Office romance is a big no-no, and thankfully there isn’t anyone I would consider dating. There are a couple of eye-candies but that’s about it. Again, thankfully because I seem to be a magnet for men.
But tonight I’m a bit burned out. Maybe the 13 hours I put in today may have something to do with it. Resolving problems all day, in conjunction with doing mathematics for hours on end, is exhausting. Right, I remember now why I needed a long vacation. Or maybe I just need to get laid. A good lay that is, not some bullshit lay. For that I’d rather take care of business myself 
I wish I were going to Spain with my friend Matt who is going to visit a mutual friend who just moved to Barcelona. I’m so dang jealous. The last time I traveled out of the country was in the Summer of 2006 where I spent two glorious weeks visiting Munich, Venice, Florence, Cortona, Positano, and the island of Capri. The true motive for the trip was the World Cup where the ex and I got tickets for the Ivory Coast vs. Serbia Montenegro match. That trip was amazing, and a long long long time ago.
(Yawn) I’m so tired. Time for bed.
